~ LE PARADIS DES yUnEr ~

My hamster juz passed away dis morning. It stopped eatin a few days ago. Din noe wat exactly happened to it. Brought it to a vet last nite despite my parents scoldin coz i feel i shldn't juz sit there n watch it die lidat. Da vet gave it a jab wif drip solution which contains 0.9% sodium chloride. Den they fed it wif antibiotic n medicine 4 inflammation. Da vet dun really noe wat happened to my hamster coz most ppl dun bring hamsters to vet lah. They treat mostly dogs n cats. But ain't hamster a life too? Y r ppl treatin it like it's juz sum cheap life? Sigh. Anyway, i did all i cld le by feedin it wif sugar solution to gif it energy coz it was dehydrated n to gif it sum energy. But da vet did say it's condition was pretty bad. Well, wat more can we do? I juz prayed dat a life wun die on me again.

So i took it back hme n gave it extra care, lookin at it almost once every 30mins. I fed it wif medicine again last nite b4 i went to slp at ard 4. But i cldn't slp coz i was worried 4 it. Worried dat it wld nt hold long. It din move ard anymore. Juz lied there at da same position. U noe how much it comforts me to c it's heart beatin every time i went to look at it? N it's little actions comfort me too coz i noe it's still alive. I can still rem how it looked at me wif it's big n innocent eyes when i fed it wif medicine.

N so i went to bed after feedin da medicine. I woke up at ard 5 to look at it again juz to ensure dat it's ok. N another time at 6. Den i took it 4 granted dat it'ld be fine until next morning. So i lied on my bed, still cldn't slp until 10+. When i woke up, it's oledi dead. I thot i cld take it ez coz i din react much. I sort of expected dis wld happen. N so i moved on to brush my teeth n wash my face. Den i went to clean up it's cage n settle it's body. I cldn't hold my tears n i face it's motionless body lyin at da v.same position as wat i saw last nite. All i cld do was to clean up da cage. I left da body 4 my parents to settle coz i juz can't do it myself. I wanted to touch it 4 1 v.last time, but i was scared i'll break down when i touch it's cold n hard body. So i din. I'll nv 4gt how cute it was n how special its fur was. I guess dis will be da last time i'll eva haf any pets. It juz hurts too much to c them die b4 me. I regret nt spendin time wif my hamster during my exams n clinicals coz i was simply too tired to do so. N now i can nv eva do it again...

I cried thruout while writtin dis post. U muz be tinkin y i am gttin so emotional over a little pet. Well, i guess all lives r precious to me. I'm juz 1 emotional gal who nids to grow up ba.

In memory to my dear hamster who had been wif us 4 3mths...